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Thus spake "LES!" :
Hey guys. I know it's been quite a while since I've posted anything here. I've not had newsgroup access on my laptop. I know I coulda gotten to the group through the web, but that's entirely too much work for me to mess with. snip I'm so sorry you lost your mom. It's really hard when you're young and think they'll live "forever". I was 27 and my father was 57 when he died. We're going through cancer right now. Not as bad as lung cancer, though. I wish you had had some more help with your mom. I'm glad you're still cruising. Sometimes when life really sucks you have to take a few days off. -- dillon Could have been is in the past Could be is in the future There is only the now |
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Les it is great you are back. I remeber only to vividly a similar
situation played out for me in 2000 with the death of my mom from Lung Cancer. Here is something that helped me shortly after Her passing -TEAR DROPS A JOURNEY OF GRIEF, HEALING AND HOPE Told through Poetry Available in eBook only Beginning with a poem she wrote for her husband shortly after his terminal cancer diagnosis and continuing with poems written during the two years of his illness, this inspirational collection of poetry, takes you on the emotional journey of a loving wife as she cares for her husband and copes with the realization of his impending death. Telling her own story, the Author writes straight from the heart; her poems portray the incredible love she has for her husband and her courage as she rises above her grief to remain strong for him, determined to ease his pain and to support him as he travelled to the end of his life. Further poems portray the eventuality of her husband's death, the depth of her sorrow and her journey of grief and healing as she searches for and eventually finds, new meaning for her life. A compelling read for anyone dealing with Anticipatory Grief due to the terminal diagnosis of a loved one and for those who are grieving through the loss of a loved one. This beautifully written and emotive book of "tear drops"will reach into the hearts of all who read it and comfort them in the knowledge that they are not alone. Includes all of the Poems from Lorraine's book "Lean on Me", Plus many more not previously published. Purchase "Tear Drops" AUD$16 AUD - Nothing more to pay - Immediate download Special Offer Purchase your copy of "Tear Drops" today And receive a SPECIAL DISCOUNT off the regular price of Lorraine's book "Lean on Me" Cancer through a Carer's Eyes. Conditions apply - Click here for details. |
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"LES!" wrote in message
. .. I thought of something after I posted which I did when I lost my mother. My mother had a heart attack on a Friday night followed by a stroke on Monday, July 4, 1955, and she died that day. I was in the Army stationed in Germany and didn't get home until after her funeral. I was going through her pocketbook a few days later when I found a silver dollar which I took and put in my pocket and have now carried with me for over 50 years. Les, find something of your Mom's and make it yours, and in that way she will always be with you. -- DG in Cherry Hill, NJ (* _ *) |
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Checking In - Update! THANX!
I wanted to thank everyone for their kind words and use a single post to answer a few questions and make some comments. Tobie - The October Conquest cruise isn't the Sleazy cruise. Originally I wanted to do that one, but my Cabin Crawlers group decided to book an October cruise for our annual group cruise instead of the usual December one. They voted and chose the October 15th cruise instead. This is also the same week as the large Cruise Critic group (Saints and Sinners) so it should be fun. Dick - My mother wanted me to have her mother's ring, so that's my thing to keep with me I teased her while she was still lucid that I was going to have it made into a nipple ring and wear it everywhere. She thought it was pretty funny Jo-Ann - Mom did have a living will. Basically, the decisions I had to make were in regards to her medications. I had to decide when to change her meds from morphine to methadone, luckily she expressed her desire for the sedation therapy, but when they returned to administer the IV, I had to decide for sure on it. Also, when to stop giving her water (it became a choking hazard about 3 weeks before she passed) etc.. really nothing we could have predicted or thought to put into her living will. The only thing she really had listed were no heroic measures and a DNR. Jean - Hospice is fantastic. They came twice a week to check on mom and we also had a nurses aid come 3 times a week. It helped to just have a caring nurse whom I could ask questions and get information from. All the nurses fully expect me to go to nursing school now lol. Every time they came over, they would ask me "And when do you start nursing school?". I don't feel like I have that in me, and besides, I wanna be a teacher when I grow up Diana - I know, I couldn't come back without at least 2 cruises booked. When Jarrod told me that I've earned at least 2 cruises this year, I booked 4 lol... now, he also promised to let me buy a new ring on each cruise... we'll see how many diamonds I get this year grin I think once I've managed to deal with the loss and the emptiness I feel I'll be ok. It's just difficult going from 24/7 caregiver to being back home. Alegra and Kristine are in school during the day, Jarrod's at work, so I'm a bit lost. The Doctor who founded the Hospice my mother used also started the Hospice in Albuquerque , so I'm considering doing a little volunteer work with them. I'm not sure how fulfilling that will be, but once I feel up to it, it's something I'd like to do. I'm also not feeling content in Albuquerque anymore. I've promised Jarrod that I'd give it 6 months to see if I readjust. If not, we'll be relocating. I'm thinking Tampa or San Diego, but at this point I can't really even think about anything like that. Ok, I'll stop with this one lol. You all know that once I get started it's hard to shut me up blush LES! "LES!" wrote in message On February 21st at 9pm my Mother passed away in her sleep. That morning we decided to start a sedation therapy, and that allowed her to let go. The sedation therapy was just one of the many many decisions I had to make with no help from my Step Father, brothers or sister. (I literally had no help from anyone even though they were all there with us) She was buried yesterday February 25th. Which was also my 35th birthday. As hard as that was, I think in the end I'll find it a therapeutic thing. My mother brought me into the world 35 years ago and on the anniversary of that, I saw her out of this world. |
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LES! wrote: I'm home now and I feel completely lost. It's going to be hard getting used to not having to check on my mother every 30 minutes day and night. But I know in my heart that things are better now. At least her pain and fear have ended. This has been the longest 6 months of my life. And although I know it'll get worse before it gets better, I know my mom's no longer hurting or ill. snip I've got 4 cruises booked for this year. I'm giving NCL another try on 4/1 on the Dream Les, I am so sorry for your loss. Your mother was very lucky to have a son who would take the time to take care of her when she needed you the most. I have seen so many elderly people who got no help at all from their kids. I know how hard it was for you taking care of her, I was the only one there to take care of my mom during her last months. It is a huge change being home now, but you will get over that lost feeling with time. It is harder for you then it was for me, not only the lenght of time you were with her, but you are so much younger then I was at the time. My mother and I knew it was her time and I think that helped alot. Hospice is a wonderful group and I send regular contibutions to them. They were not only wonderful to my mom, but they really cared about me also. I am very glad to see that you have some cruises lined up already. I see you have one on 4/1 and that isn't very far away. Planning and getting ready for your cruise is the best medicine for you right now. We had a cruise booked for 2 1/2 weeks after I got home from taking care of my mom. I wanted to cancel and curl up in a corner, the cruise was the best thing for me at the time. Again, your mother was lucky to have you as a son!! sue |
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"LES!" wrote:
I'm a bit lost. The Doctor who founded the Hospice my mother used also started the Hospice in Albuquerque , so I'm considering doing a little volunteer work with them. I'm not sure how fulfilling that will be, but once I feel up to it, it's something I'd like to do. LES, just wanted to comment that being a hospice volunteer can be extremely rewarding, and I certainly think your positive attitude generally and your unique experience with the terminal illness of your mother makes you well-suited if you want to pursue the idea. However, you are wise to consider it for sometime down the road. Having been through the experience of losing a loved one to cancer, I know I couldn't put myself out there as a hospice volunteer for a long time after that. It is emotionally uplifting and draining enough without any personal grief in your life. Take care, Diana |
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Les, My deepest sympathy to you. Your post brought tears to my eyes. I lost my very best friend to throat cancer March 15,2005. I still am having a difficult time accepting that I can no longer just pop in and see him in his apartment. We did many cruises together. He first had the cancer 6 years ago and to everyones surprise chemo actually helped him and the cancer completely disappeared for 5 years. I am grateful that this comeback enabled us to cruise a few more times. For a year before his passing, he again had chemo but to no avail. I watched him slowly get worse over that time. First the feeding tube and then the trach. He was a professor at ASU and almost to the end he explored ways that he could teach online because he could no longer talk. He just loved his work so much.We also used a wonderful Hospice for the last couple of weeks of his life He had a fairly large amount of money in his retirement fund which he left me. This did produce the blessing that now I can afford to take care of my mother and was able to quit my job. She has dementia and parkinsons, but is very happy and laughs a lot. When I say "I love you", She always says "I love you too." She is the same sweet person she always was. You should be very proud that you were there for your Mom when she needed you the most. Truly a job well done....as difficult as it was. |
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